An affair of the heart

My Lover is not the first man I have been with during my marriage, but he will likely be my last. 

During a difficult period in my life I strayed from my marriage and eventually fell in love with my affair partner. I blogged about this on a blog called “Where does love go from here”. Well, I learned it lead to heartache. Eventually the affair ended, I confessed my sins to my husband, and after I finally felt healed I deleted the blog.

Rather than end my marriage and rip apart my family,  My Husband and I decided to instead have an open marriage. Over the course of the past couple years I have had a handful of lovers while My Husband has pursued friendships with other women. It’s important to note that he considers himself to be “a-sexual”. He is very aware of My lover and permits me to spend one night a week away from home. 

My Lover’s marriage is also open. Their marriage is not for me to discuss on the Internet but his wife is aware of my existence and our relationship.

At this point I am in a place where I am tired of dating and pursuing different men and I would just like one sexually satisfying relationship where we can  spend time together but still be present for our families.

I have found all this in My lover. 

Finally my heart feels content. But, as with any relationship, when you feel those inklings of love, there are bound to be ups and downs.